A conversation with Cyn M


    We spoke with Cyn M about waking up too late, the vastness of the sea, riding a mule and the overlapping of dreams and reality.

    I think the creative process involves allowing yourself to be truly in the moment, accessing and channeling without any rational intellectual goals.


    Morgan Enos

    The music that you and Andy Z. make together as Silence in the Snow occupies a very subconscious and subterranean zone with me. You’ve even evocatively described your own music as “melt dreams.” What do those two words mean to you?

    Cyn M

    It’s definitely coming from a place somewhere between dreams and waking life… where the two merge somewhat… I think the creative process, for me, involves allowing yourself to be truly in the moment, without any rational intellectual goals, accessing and channeling.  There’s something mystical about it for me.


    Can you describe your musical partnership with Andy Z.? When and how did the two of you first decide to make music together? Do you plan to continue your creative life into the future?

    We’ve known each other for many years and have played in different bands together, so it was a natural process to work on this record together. As far as the future, he has moved on to other interests and I am collaborating creatively and playing live with Trevor DeSchryver, who plays drums and joined a couple of months after the record was released. We just finished a tour and are working on new material.

    I do remember a dream I had when I was in early elementary school that involved me being a boy and dying in a war.


    Can you tell us about your very first and most recent memories? What about both has stuck with you?

    Memories are interesting because they evolve and change subtly every time you reflect on them. My very first memories from childhood are from when I was around four years old; but they are just snapshots of certain moments with friends. Emotionally charged memories are the ones that stay with me, whether from real life or from a dream.

    I do remember a dream I had when I was in early elementary school that involved me being a boy and dying in a war; it felt really intense. My recent memories involve all of the experiences we had on our summer tour. We played a special show in Dallas with our friend Kennedy from Them Are Us Too who has a new project called SRSQ. It felt really magical that night and the crowd was very receptive and energetic. Shows like that one can be very powerful in the way that they make us feel transported and in-the-moment all at once.


    During this recent stormy weather in NYC, I’ve been listening to Bach’s harpsichord concertos and some recreations of Hildegard Von Bingen compositions, like 11,000 Virgins. I love how these primal pieces of music make as much sense now, hundreds of years after they were composed. What music has a primal effect on you?


    I discovered a Persian singer from the 1940s-50s named Delkash from my dad’s music collection and her music really moves me. I also have a visceral reaction to the raw emotion and passion of Romani influenced music from around the world.


    I tend to stay up very late these days – usually working on questions for North of the Internet! Are you an early or late riser? Has it always been that way?

    I’ve always been a late riser – I’ve been that way since childhood. But when I’m working, I have to force myself to adjust. Some of our most fruitful creative moments have occurred late in the night when time becomes irrelevant.


    Silence in the Snow is a relatively new band in the Bay Area scheme of things, but I’ve seen lots of deservedly nice attention given to your music. Tell us about a few meaningful relationships you’ve made in your circles as this fairly young project has gained steam.

    Thank you! I’ve been involved in this scene playing music in other bands over the years, so I have ongoing friendships with other musicians, but I continue to be inspired by meeting new people through this band, which keeps thing refreshing and exciting. It seems people are responding and connecting to what we’re doing which feels rewarding.

    Michael Stock has been really supportive by inviting us to play at Part Time Punks in Los Angeles. We’ve played his shows on a couple of different occasions and it is always a great experience! Meeting Trevor and creating/playing music together has been the most meaningful new relationship that has developed as a consequence of us connecting through this music.


    Speaking of being drawn to centuries-old music lately, I’ve started reading Patrick O’Brian’s Master and Commander series of novels. I can’t claim to understand all the Napoleonic nautical dialogue, but O’Brian’s books still have a transporting effect on me – I really feel like I’m there. Do you have any important life experiences in or on the ocean?

    I’ve lived near oceans for most of my life and have always loved it. The vastness and dark mystery can be awe-inspiring. I remember discovering that feeling while on a ship in the middle of the ocean and seeing nothing but water in every direction.


    Please tell us about the oldest and newest item you have in your house or living space. How did you acquire both?

    I have a gold heart-shaped locket that my Dad gave me for my birthday when I was in third grade; It’s hanging on the wall of my bedroom.

    The newest item I have is a book called Art Sex Music by Cosey Fanni Tutti.


    Finally, can you show us a high-quality childhood photo of yourself? What would you say to that kid about the life ahead of her?

    I’d tell her she’s going to get lost in music, but I wouldn’t have it any other way.


    We gave Cyn a list of geographical and topographic features and asked about her experiences and memories regarding each one.


    There are these caves near the ocean along the Pacific Coast and it’s so intriguing to go in and explore, but also feels like you may never find your way out.


    I went on a ride down a river in Iran using an inner tube and a black water snake wrapped itself around my arm on the way down.  I flung it into the air and then hiked the rest of the way down.


    I’ve been to the Caspian Sea, which is technically the largest lake in the world.


    We visited White Sands in New Mexico on our recent tour. The appearance of the sand illuminated by the sun was completely surreal.


    My birthday is in February and I spent early elementary school years in upstate New York where I usually woke up to the aftermath of a huge snowstorm and then waded in the quiet magic of it all.


    I rode a mule up and down the Alborz Mountains when I was a kid. It was scary because the mules like to walk right on the edge and you feel like you’re on a tightrope, but they have incredible balance.

    Thank you.


    Conversation: 26
    Curated by: Morgan Enos
    Conducted by: Email
    Published: August 30, 2017
    Total questions: 9 + 6
    Word count: 1143
    Reading time: Four minutes
    Hyperlinks: 12
    Imagery: 1


    Longest word by syllables: collaborating, relationships
    Mule: up, down
    Birthday: February
    Largest lake: Caspian
    Birthday present: Locket


    About the subject

    Cyn M is a founding member of the band Silence in the Snow. She has also recorded music as Malditos.

    About the curator

    Morgan Enos is a songwriter and journalist originally from California. His curatorial work for North of the Internet aims to strike a deeper place in his conversation subjects — the dreamy subtext to the linear everyday. Morgan also frequently writes power pop records as Other Houses about joy, outer space, frustration, chess and spiritual light. He resides in New York, where he continues to creatively fire on all cylinders.

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