We spoke with Elijah Wolf about swimming holes, sleep paralysis, exiting life with unanswered questions and erasing the boundaries of the Internet.
Up until the end, I would go to my grandfather for advice. I feel as if there were some questions unanswered leading up to his final days.
We asked Elijah to describe his mood at the moment in scrambled language.
You’ve released some music dealing with your grandfather’s death — but I’m more interested right now in talking about his life. Can you describe your relationship with him and how it transferred into these songs?
Certainly. For as long as I can remember, I felt so inspired by my grandfather. He was someone who really would do anything for those he loved. We spent a lot of time together, and up until the end, I would go to him for advice on certain situations. I feel as if there were some questions unanswered leading up to his final days, and writing these songs helped me analyze these moments and give clarity to everything.
Do you feel like a person’s relationship with someone can develop even after their loved one passes away? How does this work? Does this lend itself to the idea that we all just subjectively exist in each others’ consciousnesses anyway?
I do feel that way, actually. As I mentioned, writing this record was a way for me to analyze my thoughts and feelings and find clarity in a part of my life that felt so confusing. I know that as I carry my grandfather’s advice, stories, and whatever else I picked up from him along the way, I feel comfort in knowing that these moments and memories are still very much alive in my current life.
Do you think New York City cares whether we live or die? Is that the beauty of living in a city — sort of accepting that and toughening up as a result?
I agree that there is something sort of beautiful about being a part of something that is way bigger than all of us, and for all of us strangers to be so close throughout. NYC as a whole certainly does not care if we live or die. However, I have my journey and I have my loved ones close to me. So even in this big mess of a city, I find purpose and meaning with such an incredible community here.
The Internet will be less of a division of two worlds. t’ll be integrated into daily life so much that there will be no way to split up the two.
What was the first dream you remember having as a child?
I can’t recall, but I’ve been having the wildest dreams lately. Not what I was asked, but my dreams have been wild lately. I had one of those dreams where you wake up but are still dreaming and can’t move.
Do you think future generations will know everything about us via our Internet footprint, or that what we know as the “Internet” will be unrecognizable in a few hundred years?
I think that the concept of the Internet will change greatly by then. It will be less of a division of two worlds, and rather, it’ll be integrated into daily life so much that there will be no way to split up the two.
Please describe your first memory of a beach or shoreline.
I spent a lot of time in Long Island growing up, so I have many fond memories of the beach there. As far as a shoreline goes, however, I grew up swimming in the Esopus Creek in the Catskill Mountains. My mom’s best friend owned some cottages right on the creek, so we spent so much time growing up at the swimming hole. I learned how to swim there. First day we got a dog, we brought him there. That’s a sacred place to me.
Curated by: Morgan Enos
Conducted by: Email
Published: December 13, 2018
Total questions: 1 + 6
Word count: 608
Reading time: Two minutes
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About the curator
Morgan Enos is a songwriter and journalist originally from California. His curatorial work for North of the Internet aims to strike a deeper place in his conversation subjects — the dreamy subtext to the linear everyday. Morgan also frequently writes power pop records as Other Houses about joy, outer space, frustration, chess and spiritual light. He resides in New York, where he continues to creatively fire on all cylinders.
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